A rambling thinking type of post...

AGAIN WITH NO PICTURES!

But peek back tomorrow and you ought to be pleasantly surprised!

So I have two things I wanted to tell you and neither of them is really worth a post but together maybe they will be...

First off I just finished a book called "one shenandoah winter" and it really struck home with me. It was about a woman who was taking care of her uncle who they find out was dying of cancer. All in all the book depressed me BUT there was one paragraph that struck a chord. I am not sure it was a good chord but it was at least one I recognized. It said something to the fact of caring for poppa Joe had sapped Carrie of her anger, that quick wit that had hung with her all of her days was now gone - gone with the caring words and looks and touches she gave poppa Joe as she helped him journey into the end of his days. I FEEL THAT! I don't seem to be angry anymore - no more road rage, no more hurt feelings pretty much none of that. Even the energy that I used to have is gone. I can sit now I don't NEED to be doing something at every minute of the day, rest is something and it is now something I relish. I am still working out but more because I ought to than I want to... I hope that that changes someday!

Secondly a little story about my sister. For the first year that I can remember I am going to give her a birthday present on her birthday. You might wonder if she lives far away but that isn't the case, she lives right in town. It is simply that she is a Jehovah's Witness and she doesn't celebrate birthdays... This year however is a big birthday for her and Kat (an angel on earth) has explained to her that it is important for those of us who love her to bits and pieces to show her on the day we celebrate her life. And for this one year she has agreed! So next month I will be giving a gift and some strawberry shortcake to one of my all time favorite people. One of the very few people who can talk me off the ledge, I am beyond excited - mostly because it's okay with her! Another quick story about my sister she is the only one (other than my mom) who never forgets my birthday NEVER every single year she calls me up and leaves a message on my machine that says she is so glad that I am alive and that God brought me into her family. It makes me smile every year, every year I look forward to that call to me that means birthday! The only year she didn't do that was the year my grandmother died right before my birthday and she was afraid that we both would cry to hard so that year she sent me a plant saying just that!

Ooopsy I have a third thing I want to mention. The other night I ended up having to go out to dinner by myself (long story) and was sat next to a table of young 20 year olds. The young man excused himself to go have a cigarette and when he came back the ladies gave him shit about it. Well his reply kicked me (and probably anyone else with an IQ) in the chest. He said "Oh cigarettes don't really cause cancer, it's like everything else - Eggs cause cancer so you better not eat eggs, microwaves cause cancer so don't eat anything in the microwave, charcoal causes cancer so no barbeques, alcohol causes cancer so you better not drink, and the only thing that doesn't cause cancer is carrots but if we wait a few weeks that will cause it too."

I realize that we live in a time where they are discovering things rapidly but has ANY science or medicine ACTUALLY SAID cigarettes don't cause cancer? Nope not at all... I wanted to grab this man and let him know how much cancer sucks the life out of a family and if he can do anything to ensure that his odds are a little better he ought to do it!

Well I better leave this happy so:

Knock knock

Who's there

Just Wanda

Just Wanda who?

Just Wanda wish you a happy day!